Andrew's Confessional Thread

[Andrew Monaghan]

BTW I would like to point out that I am NOT OK with going up as a pawn as a general principle. But in final 5 round the HoH can be forced to nominate anyone depending on how veto goes. It is important that AJ and Dixie do not realize that Estelle and I have a relationship that would surpass their relationship with her. Otherwise they might win veto, decide not to use it, and vote together to send me packing against Estelle's wishes.

I would LURVE for Talla to survive this round. But there is literally nothing I could do except fall on my sword for her. If she wins veto, I might be able to survive, but if I win I know she would leave. Still I am going to try my hardest to win because ultimately, Andrew is in this for Andrew.

The good thing is I will be up against Dixie and AJ for HoH, and they have not been formidable opponents thus far. Dixie has been pretty fast at some comps but then freezes up in others completely. And AJ lol.

[Andrew Monaghan]

Not exactly sure what Talla is doing right now, but her making waves is good for my staying in this game. I am just stepping back and trying to disassociate myself from this drama.

[Andrew Monaghan]

Well, this COULD be my last post in here. I will be pretty devastated if it is, because I don't understand why Estelle would be lying to me about whether or not I am gonna stay. It would be cowardly, and for no reason. She is telling me I am staying and I gotta believe in her.

She seems convinced I have both AJ and Dixie voting to keep me. I am not so sure, but I mean what am I gonna do? I didn't want to try and force her hand about taking me off the block, because I could lose her vote that way and that would sink me completely. And I do understand her point about me not wanting to vote out Talla, and it being easier if I was next to her.

I don't like that this leaves my fate in the hands of pretty much just Dixie and AJ. But what can you do? Sometimes in Big Brother you have to sit in the nomination chair, and it sucks but it's just part of the game. In order to leave this week, 2 out of Estelle/Dixie/AJ would have to turn on me. I just don't see that happening? But who knows, maybe I am a gullible fuck.

If I DO make it through this round though, I have a pretty solid chance at winning final four HoH. I will be up against AJ/Dixie? That has to work in my favour.

[Andrew Monaghan]

LOL @ Liza liking the post that AJ made wishing me and Talla good luck. I think she thinks I am leaving and that makes her happy? Who knows... I could be. Or maybe she is just happy that AJ is not a final nominee this time.

[Andrew Monaghan]

Talla is doing what ever she can in order to get me out this round. That means dragging my name all through the mud to AJ, Estelle and I am sure Dixie. I actually haven't really been doing that to her so that sucks, but I understand why she is doing it. I admire when people have passion to stay in the game. I hope she doesn't assume that I have been lying about her and hate me for like no reason, going into the jury house.

Although, I guess that would just continue the trend of my horrible jury management? I wish I cared more. Like, guess it sucks that people hate me just because I have won 4 HoH's and am likely to win a fifth, breaking a Rise and Fall record (sorry James). Or because I stabbed pretty much each jury member in the back and sent them there one by one. Or perhaps because I am the center of attention like every other round. I was just paying the price to be ~fabulous~. And I decided I was going to play that way a LONNNGGG time ago. <3

[Andrew Monaghan]

EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE! SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO NERVOUSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS!

[Andrew Monaghan]

Thank GOD!

*Huge weight lifts off Andrew's shoulders*

[Andrew Monaghan]

So I heard AJ and I got pretty similar times on this challenge. I am praying to god that I beat him because it would be such bullshit if he won. The captcha at tiny pic wouldn't load for me so I couldn't upload for like 1 and a half mins. It took me like 8 tries to get that thing to load. FUCK CAPTCHA.

[Andrew Monaghan]

Well, I think I just legitimately lost against Dixie, I dont think I would have been two full minutes faster if I had not had the captcha issues.

[Andrew Monaghan]

Week 9

Super disappointing to lose HoH! Not because I think I am in tons of danger this round, but more so because I wanted to win the sole title of most HoH's in Rise and Fall (still have one more shot at it though, and it would be fitting to be first and last HoH). I think I actually do stand a pretty good chance at surviving the round, but I am not 100% safe like Estelle. I think if I win, Estelle wins, or Dixie wins I will make it to final 3. If AJ pulls his first competition out of the bag during the first veto... well then I'm pretty much toast. Lets hope those pigs don't start flying. 

[Andrew Monaghan]

Gah why did we let Dixie get this far???

Right now Estelle and I are trying to get her off the block so she can blindside AJ and keep me. If Dixie vetoes Estelle, then <333333333333333333. <33333333333333333333333. <33333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333

SO SO SO SO HAPPY IF THAT HAPPENS.

If not, well this has been a fantastic game and one of the most memorable I have ever played. I have had a blast basically making alliances with everyone and winning every competition possible. All I need is for Dixie to not foresee Estelle keeping me and eliminating AJ. Plz

[Andrew Monaghan]

Hey Dixie!

Congrats on both an HoH and Veto win this week! Way to kill it you comp beast!

Anyways, I am basically messaging you because I know that people will be putting huge pressure on you to leave me on the block. Obviously I hope you decide not to do that, and since the jury kind of loathes me, I think it is better for your own game to take me to the end over Estelle and AJ. Both of those two have played fantastic social games and would be much harder to beat because of their fabulous jury management. Whereas I have 3 people on there who hate me, 1 person who is kind of meh about me, and only one who actually likes me... If you saved me obviously I would vote the way you say.

If you did feel you have to leave me on the block, I feek after chatting with him that I could get AJ to keep me but Estelle would just send me out the door.

Anyways, just some food for thought. At the end of the day, this has been a fun game and I have enjoyed playing with you. I started this game wondering if you would be active or not, and I am glad that you were. Good luck with your decision.

I sent this to Dixie because I wanted to use reverse psychology on her and get her to keep Estelle off the block so she can bring me to final 3. I know Dixie doesn't want Estelle evicted this round, so hopefully she will think Estelle will be in jeopardy if she is nominated beside me (in reality, I would be completely dunzo but lets not let Dixie find that out).

Estelle will have to lie to both AJ and Dixie about evicting me for that to happen, and she has already done that. She is my only chance at surviving this round. My ONLY shot. PLZ PLZ PLZ come through for me Estelle!!!

[Andrew Monaghan]

Thanks Andrew! I think you are being too modest..I thought you had this game in the bag week 1 and have always been the top contender in my eyes. So if the Jury wasn't bitter you would indeed win.

AJ has a horrible social game because people didn't like him (Like myself not being on AIM is bad for social aspect) but yes Estelle is obviously a good contender to win. I would say it's You > Estelle > then AJ and myself

So I don't think it's in my best interest to veto you for my game

She responded with this.

If I was actually banking on her saving me, I would be screwed. But I am banking on her saving Estelle and Estelle saving me.

[Andrew Monaghan]

OMG ESTELLE WAS SAVED! YESYESYESYESYES!

[Andrew Monaghan]

So I am 95% sure I am staying to final 3 round. Woo for being last Canadian standing!!!

There is a small chance that Estelle will cave to pressure, but I really doubt it. She is a strong player and I think the both of us are somewhat emotionally driven so we were able to form a great friendship that will last well over the game is over. I think emotional players tend to do better in this game than strictly rational players, and that's because a good social game involves relationships which are guaranteed to have emotional components.