Andrew's Confessional Thread

[Andrew Monaghan]

Round 4 - So THIS is what it feels like to be a comp whore

First of all, thank God I have power in my house again! It was ~so~ frustrating being in the minority last round and then being unable to communicate with people about what happened. When the votes were revealed I was in a state of shock because I felt quite confident that Suzette would stay. Rory/Dixie/Krystal/Talla/Myself should have been enough... but when the votes were revealed I was given a reality check. At first I actually thought that someone had a special power to flip votes or something. BUT turns out I was just really out of the loop and I was in the minority.

From what I understand, Talla and I were the only two who voted to keep Suzette (Talla <3) which sucks because Suzette was amazing and would have brought a hell of a lot more to this game than I predict Ryan will. Anyway, Suzette is gone now and I have to figure out what I am going to do from here on out. I don't feel all that great about my position in the game right now, I think that I am a huge target and the next time I am on the block I could very well go home. I need people around who are on my side and won't buckle under pressure. 

More coming later about HoH and stuff but LULZ at me stumbling ass-backwards into another HoH.

[Andrew Monaghan]

Just thought I would show you some pictures of my neighborhood after things went down. It may not look like much but my neighborhood NEVER has any form of natural disasters. There were so many hanging power lines this weekend. It was cray cray.

[Shir]

Wow crazy. That tree

[Andrew Monaghan]

That tree fell 2 doors from my house! I was so lucky the trees behind my house didn't fall down cuz they are even bigger and could have really done some damage.

[Andrew Monaghan]

So I have officially decided I should turn against AJ. What sealed the deal for me was today when he was suggesting nominations, he didn't even mention Ryan. Instead, he mentioned Talla/Dixie/Krystal, and said that they were floating. It's like, do you even care at ALL what I want in this game? Why are you suggesting Talla when I have over and over and over again told you that she is not a floater and has been very honest with me? And that she has voted with me two rounds in a row. And why would you ignore Ryan, who I clearly have a poor relationship with. I just can't with AJ anymore.

This feels like it might be the biggest move to take place in this game. It will be a betrayal but I just don't trust him anymore. And I have to go with my gut on this one.

What I hate is how it will affect my relationship with Estelle/Liza. I really don't want them to hold this against me but I am very nervous that there is no way to avoid it. Estelle I think I will be able to maintain a good relationship (she may just be happy that I am keeping Ryan safe) but Liza might decide she needs to target me after this decision. And we all know that Liza is a pretty capable challenge winner.

I did try very hard to fix my relationship with Ryan today. I basically told him he was safe this round, and I do mean to keep the promise. He told me he would keep me safe as well so hopefully he was being sincere. I am not 100% sure that I can trust him, but I have been trying to reveal information to him that I don't need kept completely quiet so that he realized I am not bullshitting him.

[Andrew Monaghan]

So obviously last night was a very eventful one. A LOT changed in this game, and I basically jumped ship from my original alliance. I think I talked to every single player still here before I came to my decision. 

After the nominations I went invisible on AIM because I wanted time to compose myself. I don't think that speaking to someone right after you have nominated them is that good of an idea, so I wanted to PM with AJ/Rory instead of chat on AIM.

AJ PM'd me right after nominations:

When I said I was on your side and wanted to go to the end with you, I wasn't lying.

I PM's him back this:

When we originally started working together, I wanted to go to the end with you as well. I know this probably seems like a lie but I really wasn't being fake to you. But then a bunch of things that happened after that point that made me feel like I was unable to trust you. I didn't write them in the speech because I didn't feel like it needed to be public knowledge, but I will address them privately with you. It was mainly 3 things.

1. You tried to get Liza/Estelle to change my co-HoH nominations after I tried to get them to keep yours the same. And this was after I explicitly told you that I absolutely under no circumstances wanted my nominations to change. I didn't understand this at the time, I still don't now. We were Co-HoHs that had to make decisions together, and even though I would have made different nominations than you I still respected your right to make your own decision. But you tried to go over my head and get Liza/Estelle to screw me over and that really made me reconsider my plans.

2. I don't understand why you were so dead set on convincing me of an alliance that didn't exist. Talla/Krystal/Dixie/Suzette were not together, but you tried to hammer it in my head that they were a tight alliance. I tried to explain to you multiple times that it wasn't real, but you wouldn't even entertain the possibility. In the end, Krystal and Dixie voted out Suzette so I hope you don't still think that alliance existed. It just seemed like a convenient excuse to get me to target those people over the person who was actually after me (Ryan). Which seems like an indirect way of eliminating an ally without getting blood on your hands.

3. It didn't seem to bother you that someone would vocally call me out on the board. I didn't expect you to defend me or anything, but you basically implied that I was stupid to try and refute Ryan's claims when he was slandering me. But how is it possibly better for me to give credibility to his claims (which I would be doing if I just ignored him)? The impression I received from you was that it was annoying that I would bother trying to defend myself because it made things more difficult for you to get two of your targets out during that round. I have never before had an ally that tried to guilt trip me for standing up for myself.

I feel like I did try and address these concerns with you but got shut down. I know you probably feel different about it. There are two sides to each story so I would like to hear what you have to say, but if you don't want to then don't feel obligated.

I also received this PM from Rory:

Hey Andrew,

So you nominated me..... and I'm not angry, more confused. I felt like we had each other's backs, I even told you yesterday that we were good and that I wanted to work with you. I know the last vote was crazy so let me be completely honest about it:



AJ was asking me to vote Suzette constantly, and I honestly didn't want to get the blood on my hands for voting to evict Ryan, and that's why I told you that I hoped you voted to evict Ryan. I was hoping Talla,Krystal, and Dixie would also vote Ryan, and he'd be gone, but it seems like Dixie or Krystal flipped. I then wanted to offer a Final 4 deal that included you. I hope you keep this between us, because I still trust you in this game man, and even though you nominated me, I would like to work with you, I feel like there was a misunderstanding on things.

To which I responded:

I absolutely will keep this between us. Thanks for clearing up what happened with the vote last round, and I'm really sorry for acting on inaccurate information.

The reason I nominated you was because it felt to me like AJ was able to control your vote last round. I was being honest when I said I was not upset with you, but strategically I thought you would have been a vote for AJ to stay (due to the confusion last week). The other vote I thought AJ would have was Liza but I was kinda afraid to nominate her without the intention of evicting her because she is such a beast in competitions.

And also, just to explain what happened with me and AJ. Originally I was really on board to work with him, but there were a lot of things that lead me to not trust him - he tried to convince me of an all girl pregame alliance that didn't exist. And he was trying to get Liza/Estelle to change my nominations during our co-HoH even after I told him I really didn't want that happening, meaning I would have had to either put up you/Talla or Dixie/Krystal. And then last round he tried really hard to pressure me into evicting Suzette over the person who I had wanted out both that round and the one before. THese things together made me feel like pretty low on his totem pole.

Anyways, I'll end off by saying that you are not my target this week at all. I don't think it's a good idea to publicly acknowledge that someone is a pawn in case people decide they want to evict the pawn, but I do *not* want you leaving. I'm sorry that I nominated you and if I win veto I will pull you off. I appreciate that you are being understanding and if I will definitely like to work with you as well

And he replied saying:

Good to know, thanks. Yeah, AJ definitely is always trying to swing the votes for the better of his game, he's a pretty good strategic player. I'm OK with being the pawn I guess haha, its a relief knowing I'm not the real target. Good luck in veto, good to know you've got me if you win, and thanks again.

I was pretty honest in both PMs. I see no reason to lie to the two of them at this point. I put them on the block and what's done is done. AJ wants to chat on AIM and if he is around today then I would be willing to. I do feel like I hurt his feelings, and I knew I was going to but I still feel bad for it. It sucks that in a game like Big Brother where backstabbing is kind of necessary, that it still feels so shitty to do.

[Andrew Monaghan]

Had a super awkward conversation with AJ today. Like over level 9000 of awkwardness. I didn't lie to him, I basically told him that I didn't trust him and didn't like how he treated me as an ally. I don't see us being able to work together after this discussion but he still thinks we might be able to.

This conversation made me realize that I feel bad about how I treated Liza. I should have given her a headsup but I am almost positive that she would have told him beforehand.

ThaBurman3
alright, talk to me

AndrewIsASexyBeast
hey

AndrewIsASexyBeast
well I feel like I pretty much said all I had to say in that PM to you

AndrewIsASexyBeast
I mean, there is a lot of stuff that doesnt make sense to me if you were really with me

ThaBurman3
maybe, but a lot of it you could have talked to me about easily

AndrewIsASexyBeast
I did talk to you about pretty much all of that stuff before except how you made me feel when I stood up for myself

AndrewIsASexyBeast
but to be honest, that feeling was like what least impacted my decision

ThaBurman3
well, you always asked me to be honest with how I felt on things and to be open with you. I can't be that and be a yes man that doesn't point out when I think you might be hurting your chances at the same time

AndrewIsASexyBeast
ok but like

AndrewIsASexyBeast
when I put my foot down about my feelings about nominations, you still didnt accept and tried to convince Liza even after SHE didnt want to

AndrewIsASexyBeast
thats not being an ally man, thats being a dick

AndrewIsASexyBeast
and I was very straightforward about that with you

ThaBurman3
I was trying to save you from yourself

AndrewIsASexyBeast
like how can I consider you an ally if you dont even trust my judgment?

ThaBurman3
the entire Ryan thing was to try and get it so if Ryan won an HOH, which isn't unheard of to think of him being able to do, that he wouldn't put you up

ThaBurman3
that was the entire reason I tried to get you and Ryan to play nice

AndrewIsASexyBeast
ok, I understand that. But that indicates you had already determined he was going to stay and I don't think it had to play out that way even though thats what ended up happening

AndrewIsASexyBeast
like I know that week was a fail in both noms

AndrewIsASexyBeast
*evictions

AndrewIsASexyBeast
but like, taking him off the block would have solidified 100% that he was staying

AndrewIsASexyBeast
instead of at least having a achance of eliminating someone who was after me

ThaBurman3
I actually thought he was going once they stayed the same as that was the only way I could imagine them having stayed the same

ThaBurman3
the thing is though, I've never viewed the thing with Ryan as something that had to happen. Like, Ryan doesn't have t be after you and you don't have to be after him

AndrewIsASexyBeast
I can see where you are coming from, but my personality just doesnt mix with some people

AndrewIsASexyBeast
and I am not the type of person to try and change who I am so that people will keep me longer

ThaBurman3
I know, but Ryan doesn't want to fight with you forever

AndrewIsASexyBeast
I dont even know what to say, he was the one person really 100% after me. I dont see why I would eliminate someone else than him. Especially since I would have to piss off another person in the process by nominating them and them staying.

AndrewIsASexyBeast
like you wanted me to go through the round and put up4 peopel to get 1 out.

ThaBurman3
well, it would've been 2 people obviously

AndrewIsASexyBeast
like no offesne, I respect that you are a strong player and wanted things to go 100% your way that round

ThaBurman3
I also wanted you to go through it creating as few potential enemies as possible. And since I think Greg would've voted with us and at the time didn't know how voting worked, I wanted the voting numbers to favour us

ThaBurman3
no, I didn't want things to go 100% my way that round

ThaBurman3
I wanted them to go OUR way

AndrewIsASexyBeast
But you only take your own perspective into it when you are deciding what should happen for us

AndrewIsASexyBeast
I understand that maybe sometimes I seem emotional or silly, but I am not a bad ORG player and I dont like working with someone who is dismissive of me. I understand you were trying not to be a yes man, but I think there is a big difference between that, and not listenging at all

ThaBurman3
I took your perspective into account though

AndrewIsASexyBeast
it REALLY didnt and still doesnt feel that way

ThaBurman3
it may not have seemed like it sometimes, but I did

AndrewIsASexyBeast
k so you took it to account and still tried to overrule it

ThaBurman3
I took it into account, thought "okay, so this is probably how he sees it, so if I explain it this way, he'll probably understand"

AndrewIsASexyBeast
its one thing to try and convince me to get on board

AndrewIsASexyBeast
its a completely different thing to try and convince Liza/Estelle while knowing Im not on board

AndrewIsASexyBeast
cuz those were MY nominations, I tried to get them to keep yours the same, and I dont see how you dont see the breach of trust there

ThaBurman3
It was a bit of one, yes, but it was still well intentioned and for the common good

AndrewIsASexyBeast
to me it felt like a pretty big one

AndrewIsASexyBeast
I just dont think we see being in an alliance the same way

AndrewIsASexyBeast
I think a big part of it is respecting that sometimes you will disagree, and that you have to compromise. I dont feel you were willing to do that with me

AndrewIsASexyBeast
and thats why I no longer wanted to be allied with you

ThaBurman3
people working together towards the same common goal, valuing each others opinions, while both watching each others backs and conferring with the other on what to do and discussing plans while being able to trust that what is meant to stay within it stays within it?

ThaBurman3
that's my take on an alliance at least

AndrewIsASexyBeast
I agree with that definition, but I don't feel like my opinion was valued. Talking with you felt completely redundent because you wouldn't change your opinions even a little bit and always expected me to defer to you. Maybe thats not what it fel like from your end, but that is absolutely how it felt from my end. I do feel like I put a lot of effort into respecting the fact that you and I saw things differently so it sucked not feeling like it was reciprocated back.

ThaBurman3
but the thing for me is, I don't think you really came to me showing that's how you felt about it. Like, I feel I gave as much into things as you felt you gave so randomly hearing you thought this was the case for a while when my actions and intentions have been to protect us and our alliance, just seems totally out there and baffling

ThaBurman3
as does that it didn't seem like you deferred to Liza on it either

AndrewIsASexyBeast
I didnt defer to Liza regarding my own nominations.

AndrewIsASexyBeast
If she wanted to change it she could have, but it would have pissed me off considering I had kept her off the block twice and I really wanted my noms to stay the same.

ThaBurman3
I meant these ones

AndrewIsASexyBeast
I'm sorry I dont understand what you mean

AndrewIsASexyBeast
by those ones

ThaBurman3
I mean, it came across like you didn't talk or ask Liza what she thought about the current nominations prior to making them because she seemed as shocked as I was

AndrewIsASexyBeast
well yeah because I wasnt sure if I was going to do it and she would have told you

AndrewIsASexyBeast
I do feel bad about lying to you regarding these nominations, I feel that was underhanded of me and after talking to you now I would have taken that back if I coulld

AndrewIsASexyBeast
so I am sorry for that

AndrewIsASexyBeast
but after this conversation I still feel I would have arrived at the same conclusion

AndrewIsASexyBeast
because its pretty evident there is not very much we see eye to eye on

ThaBurman3
but isn't that we both agreed on wanting to get to the end ultimately what mattered?

ThaBurman3
isn't the road less relevant than the destination?

AndrewIsASexyBeast
the road is the reason I play. These games are supposed to be fun and it wasnt fun at all feeling like my alliance was constantly ignoring me

AndrewIsASexyBeast
and there are plenty of other players in this game that want to get to the end, and I felt were more willing to have an open dialogue with me

ThaBurman3
so...you ditched me for them because they were nicer to you about what they thought?

AndrewIsASexyBeast
no because they didnt go above my head to make decisions that would screw me over

ThaBurman3
I tried to make a decision that I felt would help you and save you later on

AndrewIsASexyBeast
I get that, but I am not a child and I can make my own choices

AndrewIsASexyBeast
I dont need to be 'protected from myself'

ThaBurman3
and it would've done so without blood on your hands

ThaBurman3
sometimes we all do

ThaBurman3
even I need protection from myself at times

AndrewIsASexyBeast
that pretty much seems like a justification to not take someone seriously

AndrewIsASexyBeast
and is also in my opinion a condescending thing to say

ThaBurman3
I don't really seehow on either?

AndrewIsASexyBeast
because telling someone that they need to be protected from themself implies that you have such a better read and understanding on whats going on, that you know their own game better then they do

AndrewIsASexyBeast
and that they couldnt possibly have valid reasons for what they want to do

ThaBurman3
well, no. It just means that sometimes people miss things that they wouldn't see without a second or sometimes third opinion, hence why it's good to have close allies

AndrewIsASexyBeast
yes but in going over someone's head and using that as a justification, you are also implying that you are not capable of missing those same things.

AndrewIsASexyBeast
its one thing to try and convince an ally to change their opinion on something, its another to ignore the fact that they have that opinion

ThaBurman3
well, I was never trying to ignore you though, that's the thing

ThaBurman3
and while we're being honest, I'm totally capable of missing those things

AndrewIsASexyBeast
its ignoring my wishes when after I tell you I am opposed to my nominations changing, and you go ahead anyways an try to convince the veto holder to change them.

ThaBurman3
it was thought that they'd talk it over with you to give you another perspective on it

ThaBurman3
like, I'm trying to explain things here, man

AndrewIsASexyBeast
I dont know what to say :/ I am trying to explain my perspective as well. I feel bad that things turned out this way.

AndrewIsASexyBeast
I do get that you werent being malicious and I am sorry for assuming you were being that way, but it really did seem like there was a lot of suspicious stuff going on behind the scenes

ThaBurman3
I understand and I know that I should have been more open book about some things

AndrewIsASexyBeast
alright well I will think about this. I am sorry things turned out this way. I am not really sure how to proceed from here. I am going to get ready for work though so I will talk to you later

ThaBurman3
all right, but I do still think things are salvageable. Like, things don't have to end this way.

[Andrew Monaghan]

Can I be the first to say that my game is a hot-mess? I have been working my ass off to socialize in this game and I have spread myself thinner than that super-crackable ice that lines the sidewalk every winter (seriously I am a 26 year old man and I still laugh with glee when I crack that shit). The thing about having a good social game is that it makes you feel like a shitty person, I am going to need to do some major backstabbing before I get to the end.

I can't believe it but I think I am actually going to be allying with Ryan right now. If you had told me a few weeks ago that I would be in this situation, I would have scoffed. But it appears to be happening. Estelle/Ryan/I are kinda going to be trying to work this game together. I think it could work, I really underestimated Ryan early on in this game. 

If I had to pick my ultimate ally I think it would be Estelle. Her and I talk quite a bit in this game, and we are very open with each other about what other people are telling us. She has a very good head on her shoulders and I think she can win competitions. There are other people that I trust in the game but she is my number 1 for now. Lol at the fact that at one point I thought she was boring. SOOOO not the case.

[Andrew Monaghan]

I am feeling antsy about the upcoming veto ceremony. I am gonna write my thoughts on the remaining houseguests because writing my thoughts down helps me think through decisions better.

Estelle: Someone who understands the social game of Big Brother. Her and I close and I would not nominate her under any circumstances. I hope she feels the same way about me, and I think she does. She gives me a lot of information, and I give her a lot of information. It's a very healthy relationship.

Talla: I lurvvee Talla. I trust her and that is hard to do in Big Brother. She is the type of person who is willing to listen to other people's opinions, but still come to her own decision, without shoving it down other people's throats. Unlike some people in this house. I am determined to take her far into this game despite the fact that her and Stella/Ryan don't get along. I wish they did though, that would make the job so much easier.

Ryan: I know it may appear absurd that I like Ryan now, but I do. In fact, when he first exploded on me after I nominated him I kinda respected that in hindsight cuz at least he's interesting. His social game is better than I originally accounted for, I think he has strong ties with both Estelle/Krystal.

Krystal: I wish she was around a bit more. I love her but she really doesn't seem quite as invested as some others. Maybe she will step it up, but I don't know if she will be able to make it into end-game if she doesn't start talking with more people.

Rory: I am trying to maintain a good relationship with Rory. I don't know what to think of him. He keeps his cards very close, but I think he really does like me. I want to keep him around and I hope Ryan vetoes him.

Dixie: She needs to get on AIM at least a little bit. I like her and all, but it's not optional anymore. You are either a part of this game, or you aren't. Time to decide, Dixie.

Liza: I may very well take Liza out this round. If I do, it's entirely because of her association with AJ. I like her but I think she is final 2 with him, and I think if I don't get rid of her I am going to regret it down the line. I would not be surprised if she was the type to hold a grudge. She will hate me for it, but a boys gotta do what a boys gotta do.

AJ: I *wish* AJ would explode on me for turning on him, but instead he is playing the sympathy card and we end up having these super awkward conversations. I guess I have told them I am conflicted about what I wanted, so maybe I shouldn't have given him false hope? But I am conflicted because while he's not against me, its just like dude I don't want to ally with someone who has your style of gameplay (he put Amanda's targeting of Howard to shame with his pursuit of Suzette). But it still feels horrible telling someone that they are unpleasant enough for you to make a move against them :/.

But I mean he has an obvious final 2 with Liza. How can they possibly think that I am cool with them making it through the week in tact at this point? I have clearly turned on them, I'm not even hiding it anymore. But they had no problem turning on Suzette after ALAS was formed, so karma's a bitch? Sorry, that was a snotty thing to say. But seriously, dude I am clearly in the process of fucking you over, could you please just unload on me so I we don't have to bother with these super annoying fake conversations?

I am am really irked by the way he talks to me. I don't care what the justification is, it is rude for him to imply I need to be 'saved from myself'. I want him out, and I know I am probably burning jury votes. But he drives me insane.

[Andrew Monaghan]

Welp. Its done. I have 100% turned my back on AJ/Liza and I consider that bridge to be 100% burned for me. I am almost positive they are going to be against me for the rest of the game, but I am not sure they will have very much support. I have good connections with most of the other houseguests, so hopefully those can help me through the upcoming rounds.

It's a gamble of course, and I may end up looking foolish. But AJ has a personality that grates on me, and Liza is a huge threat that is tight with him. I really hope that whoever survives the round does not win next week's HoH, but even if they do I think its possible I could save myself.

I am hoping Liza leaves this week. I think that should be an obvious decision, but who really knows with this bunch? I think I should have majority with me to get rid of her. I only need 3, and I think that people want her out. I would be quite shocked if not even 3 of Talla/Krystal/Ryan/Estelle/Rory voted to evict her.

Will this be a good decision for me? Who knows, I think it might be but you never know with BB. But the last thing I think you should ever be is complacent in this game, Liza/AJ had no problem dropping Suzette pre jury. I don't think I could have trusted them to let me near the finals. I have decided to roll the dice.

[Andrew Monaghan]

Round 6

So Dixie won HoH. I think that is a good thing for me. She knows that after 3 HoH's, and 8 different nominees, there were 8 people that were chosen before her. That HAS to be relevant in her decisions this week. She also knows that I received pressure to nominate her, and resisted. Hopefully that works out in my favour as well. I am on good terms with her, but I have this looming feeling that I am going to get randomly backdoored in the next few rounds. I must be a tempting target, so I am trying really hard to make sure that people think I am with them and that it would be a bad idea to backdoor me.

I like to think I have support in this house, but you never really know if that support is real or just is there because I've been in power most of the game. What will make or break my game is my ability to pick up on who is really with me and who is just faking it and sharpening the knife for down the line.

[Andrew Monaghan]

I have finally made my ~real~ final 2 alliance! 

Drumroll Please!!!

*Still Drumrolling*

Estelle!

I know that when it comes to allies in this game, I have been a fair weather friend. But due to my early competition wins I was forced to make alliances before I saw people's true colours. It hasn't been easy winning HoH's over and over (I know I sound like a whiny diva but whatevs it's the truth). I just don't necessarily think it's actually that advantageous to win that many early HoH's due to the target generated on your back. 

As HoH it's hard to tell who is being real with you and who is just telling you what you want to hear. Despite being fairly well connected socially in this game, I have felt very expendable because I don't think most people would want me next to them in the finals so I think if I am ever a final nominee I am in big jeopardy. I have also nominated a *lot* of people. 8, to be exact (9 if you count Brigitte, since I was technically HoH but that wasn't my nom). Any of those people could use my nomination of them as a reason to target or evict me.

 Estelle is someone who I think would go out of her way to keep me around in this game, regardless of any target I may have. She is the person I feel I have the best connection with. I think she would veto me off the block even if it would piss people off. I would do the same for her. I could see myself making it to the end with her.

[Andrew Monaghan]

AJ and Rory are the final nominations. Which is funny because they were my original nominations from last round.

1 round ago, AJ would have been my target. But I might have to drop Rory at this point. I think that Estelle has more control over AJ, and I have decided to put all of my eggs in my partnership with her. Rory presents a problem in that he is someone who would be more difficult to control, even if my influence with AJ is via proxy by Estelle. Rory leaving might also present me with better opportunities to bring in both Ryan and Talla.

The problem with getting rid of Rory is that I don't think he would be after me. I legitimately think he would want to go far with me. But working with him could cost me Estelle down the line and I feel committed to that partnership.

[Andrew Monaghan]

Welp, does not look like I am going to win this jeopardy challenge. What a fail I got goin here...

[Andrew Monaghan]

Week 7

So I know that its been a few days, and that all y'all observers are prolly all like 'Andrew hasn't posted in his DR for days, what ever will we do without his poignant observation or astute read on the game?' Well fear not, bitches! I am here to deliver the goods of what has gone down this week.

So first of all, the lovely Goddess ~Talla~ won this week's HoH. YAY! Her and I have a strong relationships so I am pretty sure that I am a lock for final 6. When her and I spoke she was originally considering nominating Estelle/Ryan together. But I pushed for her to change her decision to Krystal/Ryan. I explained to Talla that Estelle and I have a strong relationship and that her word would be good. I do genuinely think that Estelle will follow through with my deal with Talla, because I think she would feel guilty breaking a promise after I vouched for her. At least, I hope so.

I did feel bad for not trying to save Ryan, and for getting Krystal nominated. But it's final 7 and there are not tons of options available. Ryan took it like a champ but Krystal also had a kinda stank reaction to being nominated. She is super pissed off at Talla and Estelle, but I kinda wanted to say to her that its final 7 and this is her first time being nominated and you are going up as a pawn... not a big deal. Is it really that surprising that no one was gonna let her waltz to the finals without ever nominating her?

More to come later tonight! (Or tomorrow)