Rounds 7-9

[AJ Burman]

I really don't have much to say over the whole Estelle Vetoing Dixie situation other than that I'm upset she didn't talk to me about it beforehand when she could have, and I would have heard her out and been open to evicting Ryan.

Speaking of which though, how sadistically ironic and fitting is it that my early game attempts to force Ryan and Andrew to play nice manifested into them LEGITIMATELY HAVING AN ALLIANCE TOGETHER AGAINST MINE?

[AJ Burman]

Shit, Ryan's already acting like one of the most poor losers I've ever seen, and he's not even evicted yet! Seriously, he's pissing me the fuck off and it's taking everything I have to keep my few responses calm and collected and not just flip out on him. There literally isn't a single person in the game he hasn't gone off on or called out, and then he resorted to making up blatant lies about me. People not thinking I'm a threat at all? Please. Having no counter-argument? Yeah sure buddy, it just shows how in the dark he is. Me only winning in the case of a bitter jury? Uh, no, I'd think most jurors would respect a well played game. I don't "just sit there and be nice to people", I'm mature in the way I talk to people. Yes, I vent sometimes, but everybody does, and I try to save it in here for when I need to. He's just going off on everybody that he can because he doesn't really know much of what's going on, and it's just going to sink him, so even though I hate it, I guess I should want him to keep doing it because it'll just sink him more.

[AJ Burman]

After all's said and done from last round I'm actually kind of calmed down, even if I have a bit of the way of conflicting emotions. It's weird, and says something to Estelle's way of handling herself that in NOT Vetoing me, she was able to simultaneously have me find out about a bunch of stuff that happened and think "aww, I'm sorry I doubted you, Esty", AND make me actually a little bit weary of her at the very same time. It's always possible that if we get to Final 3 with Dixie and she wins Final HOH, she'll decide to take Dixie over me thinking that she'll be an easier win. It's hard to say for sure, but people having this huge target and thinking Estelle and Dixie are together could actually be good for me and lead to me not getting nominated regardless.

Since Ryan went home, Talla's gone and freaked the hell out. She's even contradicted herself entirely on things within the same hour. First, we're talking on AIM and she asks if I'm "still down for a Final 4 of her, Andrew, myself, and Esty", which I say I am, despite obviously never wanting that Final 4 in the first place and it very likely being A: incredibly insincere, B: what she sees as the easiest path to a Talla/Andrew F2, or C: both of those. She then, after I signed off, sent me a Private Message detailing how she doesn't think she can beat Andrew and throwing him under the bus, before saying the same about Estelle and offering me a Final 4 in an attempt to get herself not targeted or put up this week. She even sent Esty a PM explaining similar things, and it came across as hinting Andrew and Dixie going up (though I admittedly forget the exact wording to it since I haven't seen it since it was shown to me yesterday).

She has to know the odds aren't in her favour and I want and need this HOH so badly. I know I keep saying this, but I really do. It'd mean I'd know for sure that Andrew and Talla are going up, and it'd guarantee that one of them would go home since even if one won Veto, it'd tie and I'd send who was still on the block between them home. I know it'd mean I wouldn't be able to play in the Final 4 HOH, but as long as Estelle, or even Dixie were to win it, I'd be okay with that so long as whoever was left from Andrew/Talla didn't win POV. My only worry is well...this endgame is eerily female-heavy, and if there's some super-secret all female alliance going on that I don't know about with the purpose of eliminating anybody male from the game for the fact that we're male and it gets me evicted...I am going to be pissed.

[AJ Burman]

I just have to share some of this stuff. It's just too...WTF.


(11:56:36 PM) RiseNFall - Talla: I used to write a sex advice column. It was so much fun! But then I got super busy for a while, and lost interest when my time cleared back up.


(11:57:12 PM) RiseNFall - Talla: Are you and your girlfriend into anal play on either of you?  

^(Note: Who the HELL just randomly asks this to someone in a game and thinks it's fine and not super weird?)




(1:17:59 AM) RiseNFall - Estelle: She is weird!
(1:18:04 AM) RiseNFall - Estelle:
(1:18:12 AM) ThaBurman3: she asked me if my girlfriend and I were into anal
(1:18:48 AM) ThaBurman3: I could be wrong but, that's not exactly proper to just ask, is it?
(1:20:58 AM) RiseNFall - Estelle: whaaat
(1:21:00 AM) RiseNFall - Estelle: the fuck lol
(1:21:10 AM) RiseNFall - Estelle: She asked me if I'm a guy or girl in real life today too. She's odd
(1:22:21 AM) ThaBurman3: Yeah, I mean, sure I'm curious about people who play females in games sometimes, but I don't just randomly ask. And she said it just came as second nature to her because she writes a "sex advice column"
(1:22:55 AM) RiseNFall - Estelle: o.O I thought she was a teacher
(1:22:55 AM) RiseNFall - Estelle: lol
(1:23:42 AM) ThaBurman3: I guess she's a teacher that has to get up at 4:45 AM that used to write a sex advice article, while working in a group home?
(1:23:51 AM) RiseNFall - Estelle: lmao probably.
(1:23:56 AM) RiseNFall - Estelle: or a pathological liar :X oopsy
(1:24:06 AM) ThaBurman3: or just a bad one
(1:33:19 AM) ThaBurman3: I don't know what her problem is really
(1:35:25 AM) RiseNFall - Estelle: me neither
(1:35:29 AM) RiseNFall - Estelle: i want her gone (:
(1:36:41 AM) ThaBurman3: Yeah, if she's so over the top in lying like that that she won't even stick to one story, think of what she's lied about in the game
(1:38:17 AM) RiseNFall - Estelle: probably everything
(1:38:23 AM) RiseNFall - Estelle: I dont buy her being mad at Andrew
(1:38:27 AM) RiseNFall - Estelle: I think she just doesnt wanna be against him
(1:38:43 AM) ThaBurman3: Yeah, I thought that was obvious.
(1:39:08 AM) ThaBurman3: She talks about "knowing she can't beat Andrew", but if she wins HOH, I bet he doesn't go up
(1:40:06 AM) RiseNFall - Estelle: Yeah exactly




Even Esty finds it kinda weird and all that too, it's just like....well, I can't even think of much more to say about it that it doesn't say itself.



Edit: Oh, and:


(1:51:21 AM) RiseNFall - Estelle: She wants the girls to get together too
(1:51:28 AM) RiseNFall - Estelle: Shes like we need girls in All Stars we have to make it
(1:51:53 AM) ThaBurman3: It's final 5, I'm pretty sure that she already has a spot
(1:52:05 AM) RiseNFall - Estelle: I guess she wants Dixie in it
(1:52:23 AM) ThaBurman3: That's not her concern though
(1:52:52 AM) ThaBurman3: she should be more concerned about herself than someone who sent her ally home
(1:53:07 AM) RiseNFall - Estelle: lmao she is a mess.

[AJ Burman]

It's weird but, I almost don't even get upset when I lose comps anymore, because I kind of expect it by now. That doesn't make it suck less though, and when the next round comes around, I better have some afterburners in the tank to make damn sure whoever's left of Talla and Andrew doesn't win HOH or POV. The nomination ceremony was nice though, and it was a good feeling to have the first key pulled. Esty pretty much gave some good, nice, and understandable reasons for the nominations and it was kind of amusing to hear Talla try to claim she was "a very authentic player" when she's seemed to have trouble getting her stories straight.

And what the hell was up with that shit about "you're keeping someone safe who hates bisexuals and people that aren't Vanilla in their orientation", and "parent-child" anyway? It's like she's resorted to making up straight-up slander now to try and keep herself here.

[AJ Burman]

Uh, wow at this entire round. I got beaten out speed-wise in HOH, and had to just go and guess randomly in the POV, but the nominations have been the way they were supposed to. Talla's random shit in picking an argument with me over something she knew I didn't say was absolutely fucking ridiculous and as much as I didn't really want to bother addressing it, I have to say something because good lord, trying to stay by trying to convince Esty and others that I'm a bigot? That's just kind of lacking in the class department and a bit below the belt. The most ridiculous thing about the whole argument? Post-Veto Ceremony, Talla PM's me and says how she's "scared she won't make All-Stars" and that she "only started the fight with me to boost her 'entertainment value'", and that she picked me because I seemed the most level-headed, forgiving, and understanding. In other words: because she thought I'd just be a bitch and take it.

Naturally, she went on the whole bit about how I wouldn't be her target at all and that she'd take me to the Final 2, but that all of this is coming up now, when she knows she's really on the hot seat and that she's in very real danger of going out the door means that she's desperate to stay, not desperate to work with me. While it's possible that she's being genuine in the sense that nothing's impossible in this game, it would be insanely naive of me to not even question it and just keep her randomly. Plus, it would make Esty really question me and put a strain on the alliance we've been fostering since week 1. Not to mention, I have to look at how Andrew's been constant whether he's been on the block or not, and that Talla's personality has tended to change from when she's safe to when she's not. I just really have to hope Andrew doesn't win the F4 or F3 HOH.